I'm the Daughter of the King of Kings, a wife, mom, author, magazine publisher and podcast host and Kingdom Life Strategist.

I know - that all sounds amazing!

But I'm going to be really honest. I wasn't always this confident in WHO I AM today.

The truth is, my past is less than desirable and even though I gave my heart to Jesus when I was 13, I lived with shame, guilt and unworthiness throughout most of my childhood and adult life, never believing that God could really love me because of my life's choices - even though - I had been raised in a loving Christian home and spent most of my days at church.

I knew God had planted a huge dream inside of me and over the years, that desire never left or waned - I just managed to push it further down every every time it came up, piling a lot of lies and junk on top of it, because I couldn't really believe that God had chosen or called me - and I constantly chose the prodigal life over Him.

I eventually succumbed to the mundane of every day. Going to work, coming home, and doing it all over again. When we moved to the UK, I initially stopped working full time as my little one was still young and so, the only thing that had changed were my circumstances. I was still balancing home and now part-time work-life and actually felt worse because it seemed like I had no purpose and was going nowhere slowly. Satan thought he had won.

Being a workaholic meant it was hard for me to accept that being a mom was a calling! I now realise how important motherhood really is!

Being a people pleaser - meant I would get involved in anything and everything just to feel like I belonged and was needed.

On the one hand, I was desperate to make an impact - somewhere, anywhere - but at the same time was convinced that nothing I did, would mean much to anyone.

The enemy used F.E.A.R - False Evidence Appearing Real to convince me...

I was convinced God couldn't use me.

I was convinced I was worthless unless I was a full-time working parent.

I was convinced I constantly needed to prove myself.

I was convinced I needed to please everyone.

But the thoughts that were going through my mind like a hamster in a wheel - was not WHO I really was. It's not WHO GOD created me to BE. But the enemy knew that if he kept me trapped in those lies and thought loops...I wouldn't accomplish God's plans.

But guess what - I'm here...because I chose to fight back. Not in the way you think... I chose to surrender my all to the One who saved me - right there in my messy life.

You are reading this today because I didn't give up - but I dove in and chose to believe everything God said about me. You are here because He has a plan for your life and today is the day you take back what the enemy has stolen from you.

Who is waiting on the other side of your breakthrough?

It was only when I completely surrendered my life to Jesus - in my mid-40's - yes nearly 20+ years after He placed the call on my heart - that I allowed Him to do the work He had so patiently waited to do in my life.

Think about SURRENDER from this perspective

• When you surrender to the enemy, he takes away your freedom, and tells you that you're worthless, and have no power. He belittles you, strips you of your self-esteem, and piles on shame, guilt and fear - leaving you naked, exposed and vulnerable.
• But when you surrender to God and lift your arms up to Him - He becomes your Father. A protective Lion of His flock. He removes your weapons of anger, frustration, hurt, anxiety, depression and loneliness and instead clothes you with strength and dignity. He allows you to leave the hurts and cares behind and gives you the confidence to have hope for your future. Because a future filled with hope is what He wants for you. Read my blog: Surrendering, a sign of strength

I can't begin to describe just how different I am today from my 20 or even 40+ year old self.

I say all of that to say - I've been where you are. I've hidden away and pushed the dream aside. But I'm so grateful that God never let go of me. I'm so glad that I finally laid it all down at His feet as I now know - without a shadow of a doubt - that I am deeply loved, completely forgiven, totally accepted and powerfully equipped by the Holy Spirit to fully walk in the call He has placed on my life.

And you know what - so are you!

I hope that you'll take the bold step and reach out - even if its just to explore what is possible when you allow God to start breaking down the walls that you've built around you - which you think are protecting you - but honestly - those walls are really keeping you trapped.

Stop being loyal to your own hurt - and reclaim what the enemy has stolen from you.

I hope you'll decide to journey with me.

God is calling you higher—to walk in the freedom, peace, and identity He has already given you in Christ.

“Today I have given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses… Oh, that you would choose life…”

— Deuteronomy 30:19 (NLT)

If your heart longs for more—joy, wholeness, purpose, and love without fear—it begins with one choice:

To believe what God says about you, and to walk in it.

You don’t have to do it alone. I’ll walk with you as you lean into God’s truth and receive the answers your heart has been longing for. This is your time to rise, daughter of the King.

• Psalm 139:16 'You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book.Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.'
• Ephesians 2:10 For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.
• Mark 9:23 “‘If you can’?” said Jesus. “Everything is possible for one who believes.”
• Matthew 19:26 But Jesus looked at them and said to them, “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”